I thought I loved you but it’s just how you looked in the light
What do I do when everyday still seems to start and end with you?
She’s everything I wish I was. And you barely even give me the time of day unless you want something. But what does she have that I don’t? She’s hurt you, left you and you said she’s just a little bitch, but still, you pick her over me. What’s wrong with me? More importantly, if I mean nothing to you, why did you say I did? ):
Maybe one day you’ll remember I was always here, but never (her)e
I was falling for a boy who would ask me to come over just for a day, when his parents were away. Now all I can do is lay in my room, fall asleep, dream of you, wake up and do nothing about it.
"I need to stop my mind from thinking. I don’t know how to stop. I need to, really, so I can go in peace. I can’t sleep because I don’t want to. I don’t know what tomorrow is going to bring. I’m afraid when I wake up, he is already gone. I need him to be here, I need him to stay by my side."
I’m only worth a bit on the side. I’m only worth being a secret, your secret. Why aren’t I worth anything more than that to you? Why am I only worth 1am phone calls, worth abuse when you don’t get your dick wet. You told me it wouldn’t be like this, you swore I was different, that O was worth something. but I guess I fell for it, like the rest of them.
Always being a second option. I should be over you by now
Oh how I wish the person hiding behind that grey face was you. Please make things less complicated. I’d give anything for it to be simple. Then again, I’m not simple.
How pathetic am I, waiting for you to call…